#UGH GOD UR NOT GOOD AT THIS ACTING THING STOP #OKAY BECAUSE STOP ACTING WITH YOUR EYES #YOUR ENTIRE BODY LANGUAGE SHOWS ASSASSIN BUT YOUR EYES SHOW SCARED CHILD HE’S STILL BUCKY IN HIS EYES #SHOVE A KNIFE UP MY ASS #IT’LL HURT LESS (norocket)
It kills me that there are moments when the Winter Soldier is doing stuff that he has the eyes of someone who DESPERATELY wants off the ride. I’m not sure how aware of anything he is internally, but there are moments his eyes look horrified, like something in there is aware and has no clue how to stop what’s happening. They’re too wide. Too startled. Like someone being forced to do something at gun point. He does it several times in this scene, and he does it when he catches the shield after shooting Fury.
This really makes me think of the thing that SebStan said about WS: that he isn’t empty, his mind is all over the place.
It’s one thing I noticed on my rewatch, which was exactly how much he remembered in the chair scene, when he’s like “But I knew him.” He flashed back to the train, being pulled through the snow, the experimentation, the arm. He wasn’t robbed of his memories, he was robbed of their significance. And so, he has nothing to focus on except the mission.
#ha ha ha#shoot me in the face it would be kinder#that’s why they put the mask on him y/y#it makes him less human it makes him a monster#if you’re trying to create a weapon you don’t want it staring at your target in bewilderment/worry#bucky trying to sort through his memories to figure out what these flashes of faces and snow and ice and mud mean#the only familiarity they leave him the only thing he knows concretely are weapons and orders and targets#it’s the only thing that makes sense#but#who the hell is bucky#sob#god#what a fucking question#and HE IMMEDIATELY ASKS IT#there is no ignoring it no continuing the mission#HE KNOWS HE SHOULD KNOW THIS#HE KNOWS THIS IS IMPORTANT#like how fucking awful is that that everything stops for him for a second#who the hell is bucky#he doesn’t get to ask questions he just gets orders but he ASKS THAT QUESTION